Wow....

We just had an earthquake in Hawaii! I have looked at all the live seismic graphs and nothing is showing it though, but it was there. It is believed that it has to do with one of the Volcanoes here. There has been a bulge in the crater for a while now, and it might have finally given way. Not to sure yet, still looking for live updates on everything.

Shit went bad

Well yesterday Zack's sister was starting a lot of shit with everyone on the farm, and threatening to call Zack's dad and talk him into selling the farm. She told their parent that no one here was getting along, everyone hated her, and every one was drinking all the time. So today I told Zack about it, I felt it was the right thing to do, because he could not figure out who it was that was sabotaging him. Well... Shit really hit the fan, and they had a huge fight. She threw hot coffee on him and a bunch of shit. Well the cops got involved, and now he has to go to court for some shit or another now, and he is getting a restraining order against her so she can not come to the farm any more. But it is looking like he may really be losing the farm now because of all this shit happening. I'm kind of confused and bewildered at the moment.

Damn pigs....

Yesterday when I was driving down to the lower farm I seen a mass of pigs. I almost ran 2 large ones over in the process, then while picking Noni, I had a baby one like standing right next to me which scared the piss outta me like you wouldn't believe. When I went back down there later that evening, I had a baby pig running right in front of my left front tire, refusing to move out of my way, so I had to slow down to keep from hitting it. There were a few pigs down there and some roosters. Really made me wish I would have brought the rifle down there. But oh well.
I have a truck for my own usage now, that I am using for projects I do around the farm. We charged the batter yesterday, and this morning the damn thing is dead, so I am not to sure what is wrong with it yet, need to go look it over really well. And the damn thing has no gas either, so now I am irritated with it. But as always, I get irritated really easy. Other then all that, I been pretty damn bored around here. Just can't seem to keep my mind occupied with anything these last few days. I think it's time to go and talk with a therapist or something. I think I might just do that...

Woohoo!

I took my written drivers test today. I passed! I missed 6 questions, which was the max you can mix, but I have my permit today! So go me!
I went down this morning and did my irrigation rounds, but could not really do much since we didn't have pressure down there today. The water guy had already shut it off, the turn it on at a certain time, and then turn it off later at another time. So I picked some Noni and then came back up. My buddy was going to do his test today, so he took me with him and I did mine as well. He only missed 2 though, damn him. In 2 weeks I get to take my behind the wheel test, so I hope I pass this time. I will be driving a new blue Subaru for the test, so that should make it pretty darn easy for me.

Schedule change

Well today I just got a new schedule change for work here at the farm. I usually work Tuesday - Thursday, we only work 3 days a week here. Now I am working Wednesday - Friday. Not sure how that is going to screw with my weekend yet though. I am now in charge of irrigation on the farm for those 3 days. And someone else has Tuesday - Thursday.
Tuesday we should be going hunting. Zack brought me his 30/30 out so I can go shooting with it. But lately it has been to hot to hunt pigs here. They are all moving up the mountain where it is cooler. So we are waiting for it to cool off so they come back down here.
Went to Waipio again last night. We had parrot fish, steak, rice and mixed veggies and just kind of kicked back most the night.
I have a lot of work lined up here on the farm for me to do on my free time. Nothing that counts towards the 3 days of work required here, just some stuff to do on my off time to keep my mind busy. Got a forklift I am working on, and then I have to go down to the cliffs and de-rust our diesel tank down there and use some special anti rust paint on it. Then after all that, I am going to build a little Kava Bar here on the farm for people who are cruising by to stop and relax and have some Kava or Noni. So we have quite a few things going on that we are working on. So now I should be able to stay busy for a few weeks if I don't get it all done to fast.
Oh, there is another party this weekend, I am not sure if I want to go though. I never seem to have any fun at them when I go. Always just hanging back in the crowd watching every one else. Yah i know, That's anti social behavior. But this is why I have such a hard time getting along with other people. It's something that I have been fighting so hard to break, but at times I just don't see any reason in trying. Like when Mr. X was here. He was just an ass all together.

I hurt....

Today I went and did some yard work for $10 an hour, and man I hate yard work!
I had to trim hedges, pull weeds, put some special nitrogen stuff on the coffee plants, yadda yadda yadda. I spent all day in the hot ass sun. I got this sunburn on my back that looks like my tank top. So now I am going to have a funny looking tan when the sunburn goes away, ugh. I am going to have to get me some sun tan lotion so I can tan the rest of my body now. But hey, I made $90 today. So that helps me even more.

Nothing much exiting today.....

Well nothing really happened today, I just sat around here on the farm and played pinochle online.
I did sell a bottle of Noni today though, so that puts $5 in my pocket. So yay me!
I watched Shaolin Soccer today with the girls on the farm. I am usually not invited to watch movies, so this was really kinda cool for me. The movie was really cheesy but funny as hell. It is a must see. It ranks right up there with Kung Fu Hustle. Which is also a must see for sure!

Boring...

I processed some Noni today, and put out the Sale sign for Noni and Kava. And the boss had me print all of these Testimonials. Talking about really boring! Sheesh thought I was going to pass out over here. So now I am just sitting around waiting for people to hopefully come in today. Maybe I will get lucky and sell a few. Only time will tell on this one. Lets see if I can sell any at all this weekend. Sure would be nice to have a little extra money in my pocket, that's for sure. Just hope the other people around here don't expect to get a share of it, seeing as how I am doing all the work to sell this stuff. I just know some one is going to come up to me and ask where their share is at. I can just see it now. I do all the work and they all want part of the profit. Well they are all outta luck on that one.
Oh yah, one of the girls here got Leptospirosis, so I am really worried about her. She isn't doing all that good. The doctors think they caught it early enough to treat it, but only time will tell.
I just found out that the one person I care so much about, is coming out to Hawai'i in January!! So I am really hoping she is going to come out and see me! She is going to O'ahu though, not the big island. So we will have to wait and see on that one too. I am so tickled about this, I can't wait! I just hope everything works out, especially since my birthday is on the 17th of January!!! That would be so awesome! That would be the best birthday present ever!

Good Friday.

Went spear fishing today. Two of the guys and I. This time I got to go in and spear fish. We didn't bring anything back, but we sure tried. But we had a really good time other then that. It is really pretty down there, but really dangerous with the tide wanting to through us into the rocks right at the beginning. But once we got around the big rock we were ok. There were some really pretty angel fish down there, and a lot of others I couldn't even almost begin to name. It's really a site to see down there. I think everyone should experience it atleast once.
I sold a case of Noni today too, so that should make me about $60 in my pocket, I hope. We will see what the boss says for that sale. I wont hold my breath.
Some one tried to scam me today, sent me a check for my truck, which turned out to be a bad check, and tried to get the truck out of me. Guess they didn't think I would try to validate the check or something. But any way, I turned them into the justice system. So nothing is going to come back on me with it.
My ear hurts really bad now from the diving we did, So I am going to go lay down and sleep it off.

End of work week.

Well yesterday we partied, and today we really didn't get much work done. Sage and I cut down a few trees, and then at lunch just kinda slept the rest of the day. When we got back up, Sage decided to do a trash run, so I thought I would help out do to the lack of work I did today. Made me feel better adding in a little more time for slacking off like we did.
The owner Zack's sister's cat had kittens, but they were all still born, so she's in a pretty bummed out mood. I feel really sorry for her at the moment. But the cat is a really small and young cat still. I don't think she was ready to have kittens yet. I think she said she is going to have her fixed though, so it won't happen again.
Mr. X is finally gone! I feel so awesome now, no more putting up with high school politics any more. That makes it a lot easier around here now. I am still annoyed by a couple of the people here though. Got one guy who really doesn't want to work, just kinda lazes it out every day down there, but it ain't my place to say nothing about it though. He's kind annoying to, he is always looking for something around here that he can make money off of. Like the mushrooms we usually pick every couple of days, he likes to take the share he picked and sell them on the streets. Refuses to share with anyone else around here, which is kind of selfish and he is rather self centered.
Zack is making some new batches of Noni now, and he is going to let us sell it here on the farm, that and the powdered fresh Kava we have. For every one we sell, we get to keep $5 out of it. So that's pretty cool too. So now I can have a little cash in my pocket now. Yay me!

Yay!

Today is Mr. X's last day! We threw a party for him down on the cliffs. Had Margarittas and we ate that Parrot fish. I am going to be so happy he is gone!
I didn't get to go spear fishing today, they guy I was going to go with changed his mind, so that really ruined my day for me.
I have felt kinda really down and let down today, just really mentally fatigued for some reason.
Tried a new herb today, it is called Neem. Here is an online book to tell you a lot about the plant. It is truly recommended to look into. I may be making some Neem gelcaps pretty soon. So if you know any one that wants some, do let me know. But I may be needing some help from those that want some to be able to buy the gelcaps and to ship them after I make them. I am not wanting to sell these, just help buying the items needed. I myself have tried eating the Neem leaves and they are WAY to bitter, so if you take them in a gelcap you won't taste them. Smart eh?
Oh and let me tell you about Noni, I been drinking it every morning. It makes me feel so good in the morning. I get a lot of energy, a better mood, and it is even said it will help with cancer.There is some stuff located HERE to read about Noni fruit and it's juices. It is also very good on cuts. It works better then neosporan! So with this and Neem I am doing pretty good, and Neem has been proven to be a great birthcontrol medicine. Just eating the leaves can keep you from having kids. And it is not permanent either, when you stop eating the leafs, you can get pregnant again within a few months. Pretty cool huh? I am finding so many things here I can take for my health that are all organic, instead of pumping my body full of medications. Trust me, I feel a lot better. I recommend every one to tell their friends about the wonders I am finding here. I love it here! Such an awesomely fabulous place!
Well I'm off to bed now. Night!!!

Another good day.

Boss took Mr. X spear fishing today, and had another guy and me go with to man the ladder for when they came out. Boss caught 2 pretty Parrot Fish (this is not a picture of the ones we caught.) It was pretty fun hanging out on the cliff right there where he was spear fishing. Got to see some major waves. I will get some pictures of the cliff area some time. We use a rope to climb down to the water, it's about 20 feet down or so. Really beautiful there. They even seen a small shark just kinda hanging out down there.
So yah, today was good. Tomorrow another guy and I are going spear fishing, we just need to find some one to man the ladder for us. We are also cooking the fish we caught today out on the cliff tomorrow. Will be my first time having parrot fish! Woohoo!

Sorry...

I have not been home this weekend, I been visiting the other side of the Island. I been snorkeling and working at the Kava Bar.
I been having a really good time over here. I made $130 yesterday for a whole 2 hours of work too. I am getting paid $65 an hour for my computer work when it is needed and everything. So it ain't going to bad for me. I am sure it could be worse right?
Oh, snorkeling is so damn awesome! I seen some really awesome fish! Talking about totally rad!!! I absolutely loved it!

Waipio...

Ok, so I got to hang out under the waterfall and get soaked and do some fishing and catch nothing, and a again as usual I had some alone time. I really shouldn't have gone out to Waipio with every one last night. I was hoping to go out and have a good time with everyone and all that. But it didn't happen that way. I got to kinda just sit around and talk to my self. But I did get to enjoy the full moon though! But other then that I was rather bored as usual. I seem to have a better time down there when I go out there by myself. But oh well shit happens right?
Well other then all that, and the fact that we slept on the job sight all day today... Nothing else has changed.

Ok here is a different attitude for today...

So while I was working today and then took a really long hike with the 2 new people that just got here, here is what I was thinking today, and it all made total sense to me.
Well my mom might not want to read passed this part though.....
So I have Decided that to hell with what these other assholes all think, they don't count for nothing in my life so who cares?!
I been trying to figure out why this cancer thing doesn't bother me, and this is what I came up with. I have lived a full life in my short time, I have experienced more in my life then a lot of people 3 times my age and I have done almost everything that I want to do. The only thing left for me is to get married and visit Ireland! That is all I have left that I care to experience. So in all honesty I am really ready to let my life go and die happy. I have done and seen a lot in my life, and I don't think there is that much more for me to experience. So I think this is why this cancer issue is not bothering me that much. So it all sounds morbid and all that, but I really have come to terms with it, and I am quite happy with everything.
So much has happened to me in my life, a lot of bad and a lot of good. I have made very many people happy, and I have upset a lot of people. So to hell with everyone else, it's time for me to be happy and live out what ever amount of time that God has given me left on this earth and make the fucking best of it! And that is exactly how I feel!
Any way.... I went hiking today, went to the cliffs, climbed down into the ravine and hiked up as far as we could up the ravine until we hit an area that there was not way that we could get the dog to go up with us. Oh yah, we took one of the older dogs with us. She loves it down there. The hike was so awesome and beautiful I could not get enough of it. We ate some passion fruit we had found, seen some really pretty areas where the waterfalls would be IF the river was running. It only seems to run 2 to 3 times a year, and right now it is really dry. But the trees and the birds and everything are awesome. We even seen a parrot down there. But the mosquitoes are so horrible! I looked like a damn pin cushion by the time we got back to the farm. I had welts all freakin over me! Oh and we picked a massive amount of mushrooms too... Won't say what for though.....
We are having a party tomorrow after work. Going down to Waipio Valley.
Images of Waipio Valley.
These are a must see!!!! It's a really long steep steep road down to the Waipio valley too. I hiked it once, it's about a mile or so to get down. Was not to bad going down, but wow, thought I was going to die coming up. We are going to hang out, cook and eat down there and do a little fishing. Can't wait. And yes, I was personally invited for this! So yay!!!!!!
My mom asked me about the post I made about the cancer on my back and asked me if I was telling the truth or just looking for sympathy. I told her it was the truth, I mean this is my Diary. Why the hell would I lie to myself in my diary right? I really don't want sympathy, I'm just writing all this so I can better understand the things going on in my life. I don't really care what one person thinks, or what another thinks to be honest. But I really love the support that I am getting from everyone. So really THANK YOU on that note! Hmmmmmm, I don't really know what else to say, I think I got most my day out today one here that is worth me reflecting back on. Oh, and no I will not be eating the mushrooms, or drinking the tea made out of them.

I feel loved now!

So I was reading a fellow bloggers blog, and going over her links, and low and behold THERE WAS MY SITE LINKED! Thank you Libby! Me love you long time!! That really just made my day, so of course I added hers to mine too! She's such an awesome awesome person. Has said a lot of things to me to help me keep my head and chin up. Thank you Libby! Your the awesomeness!
Oh.... And if any single women out there ever want to come to Hawai'i, you should look me up! I can show you a lot of really cool places, and show you a lot of stuff to do. And show you some of the best places to watch the sunset. Man I love watching the sun set. It's an overpowering experience! But, um.... Yah....

BBQ...

Well I went to the bosses house last night for a BBQ. It was pretty fun, had a few drinks and played the social outcast like usual. Sat outside in the front along a lot and stared at the stars and moon. It was a pretty fun party, but one person can only have so much fun alone.
The boos is really cool people, he has done a lot for me since I have been here. He lets me use the jeep to go down to the cliffs and fish with his fishing gear. He's going to let me use his diving gear and stuff to go snorkeling in Kona area when I want to. And he said I can come and hang out at his Kava Bar in Kona and eat and stuff like that, and do some volunteer work there too if I want. Said it would be a really good place to meet some really cool people out there. So I might take him up on that offer and see what it's like. Kinda tired of hanging out alone all the time. I really love it here and all, but the loneliness really fucking suck at times. It really ain't doing a lot to help with my Depression getting treated the way I do by some of the people here, but I'm finding new ways to deal with it.
Well when Mr. X finally leaves maybe things will get better for me, I don't know. It seems like everyone follows his lead and does what he does. There is just to damn many followers here, and I ain't a follower, I'm a leader. Maybe that's what the biggest issue is. He might be afraid he won't be Alpha Male if he don't keep me on the outside. I don't know....
Well tomorrow we start harvesting the Kava root. Not sure what that's going to be like, but I am looking forward to it. Going to be a lot of work, but the end product will make it so worth it.
I still stay in touch with the wonderful woman in my life who lives in New Jersey. I would really like her to come out here, but I am pretty sure that will never happen, but one can hope right? Yah, it seems like hoping is all I really do. It never seems to get me no where though. But I am keeping a very open mind to everything right now. I am sure something will give soon, it's just the waiting part I don't like.
This is the owners Site where you can order Kava and Noni if you ever feel like it: Kanaka Kava

Some People Just Suck

Why is it no matter where it is I go I always find the ass holes and the jerks?
I been here on this farm a few weeks now, I have some how accomplished in getting alienated by everyone here, and everyone thinks I'm weird...... I have even been called a cop and a narc on a few occasions too....
We have some ass here we will call Mr. X that is pretty young and thinks he's just hot shit.
Last weekend we were all invited to a party, including me. And when everyone packed up to go, as I was coming out, he took off and left me standing there dumbfounded. Then this weekend we were invited to another party, and again when the time came to leave, he flat out told me I wasn't invited to go. I was like "WTF!?" I was personally invited to go to this party too. So what he did was he caught our ride up at the street so I wouldn't know it was here, and left me behind yet again..... What kinda crap is that?
Mr. X and his Girl also somehow got the rights to the community TV here too, which keeps me from being able to watch it as they took it upon themselves to put it in their tent where I am never invited to join them. It seems like no matter where it is that I go, there is always some useless puke who tries everything he can to drive new people like me away.
I get up every Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday morning and bust my ass just like everyone else out in the fields. Do my 8 hours, come back get a shower and eat just like the rest of em, why should u be alienated just because I'm me? Yah, I know, I'm a whiner, but hell we all have to be sometimes right?
Other then all that things are pretty good here. Caught me an Eel yesterday morning at the cliffs so that really made my day! Damn thing tied it's self up in knots on my fishing line though.
I will be posting pictures pretty soon about my time here and all that so anyone can view them.
Mr. X will be leaving in a week too, so maybe things will get better after he is gone. Well one can hope right?