Tired

Went and walked the town yesterday looking for work, everything around is pretty far off, so it was a pretty damn long walk.
Stopped off at a few mills around here and a printing shop. Also trying to new Arby's in town...... So far I have not gotten any definates.....
I'm starting to hate this damn waiting game.
Talked to the X yesterday. She still wants nothing to do with me, and wont tell me how my sons doing. So as soon as I can get the money, I'm taking her to court over this horse crap. My son don't need to be around her crap, and her other kids. All they do is hit him and throw things at him.
Man I need to get a job really soon.... Tired of my son being in the position he's in right now. It's really killing me at this point. I lay awake at night crying, wondering if he's ok. If he has enough food, if she's treating him good. Wish there was a way for me to find out.