*Insanity*

**WARNING**
Some people may not want to read farther.
*Insanity*
Welcome to my little world. Come inside and sit a spell. Would you care for a little slice of insanity?
I'm at a point now where I just don't care, don't feel, don't think, don't even wonder. I'm at a point where I see people but yet don't notice them. I don't care to talk, move or even breath. I'm stuck in a never ending spiral and I just keep sliding. Never to end up any where at any time. I can not see the bottom and can no longer see the top. I sit and think about nothing, hating everything. Killing myself on the inside to move away from any and all emotion. Love to me is unreal, feeling no longer exist. I just want to scream and yell and tell every one to fuck off and go fly a kite. I have reached a point where the only thing real is the blackness that surrounds me. The evil and the hate. Emotions of love and happiness no longer exists. I just want the world to end, for everything to just stop one day and no longer exist. I live a life of total solitude. I like it here in my shell where no one can get to me. Where I no longer have to hear the lies, and feel the false love around me. I my self no longer exist, I have been replaced with something dark and evil. I see things now that I have never seen before. I know now that nothing is as it seems, and never will be. Life is only a false image that we choose to see and feel. Most of us do not care what is below the surface. But I have fallen down to these lower depths, and I feel life's source flow from me to be replaced with something I can't say. I feel a whole new energy around me in this dark Spiral of doom. I sense a life of hatred slowly consuming me. I feel the hands of evil caressing my back and soothing my wounds. I feel evils encouragement slowly pulling me into an abyss that none can ever understand. My eyes are no longer shrouded from things in life that people refuse to see. My senses are clearer and more vivid. I hear things beyond this life and world we live in. I have been chosen to be the one that deals with hate. I have been appointed he who stands without the support of lies and dishonesty. And every day I slip further and further from this thing you call life. I have seen and felt the other side. I have absorbed and enjoyed that which we call hatred. This is my insanity, and my insanity alone. It is my burden to bear, and bear it with pride I shall. Here in my world there is no love or happiness, only that which burns and destroys. I no longer have a heart, hearts or for those that are living. I no longer live, I just exist. And my existence is above that of what we call life. I can look down on the world from the tower of hatred I now stand on, and rule over. I can see the lies and trickery that people use every day of their life, and I have moved beyond all that. I have reached the top, and I am sure one day I shall fall, but for now, I shall bask in this eternal hatred. I shall rule over this dark life I now have. I shall look and judge accordingly, and hold back no judgment for nothing any more.
THIS IS MY LIFE, THIS IS MY INSANITY!
This is just a really odd thing that came into my head and I felt it needed to be wrote down for all to read that cared to see into that which is dark and morbid. We all have this inside us somewhere, we just refuse to see it. Just don't take this as something that is really me, it's just the monster I needed to let out.