Ok here is a different attitude for today...
So while I was working today and then took a really long hike with the 2 new people that just got here, here is what I was thinking today, and it all made total sense to me.
Well my mom might not want to read passed this part though.....
So I have Decided that to hell with what these other assholes all think, they don't count for nothing in my life so who cares?!
I been trying to figure out why this cancer thing doesn't bother me, and this is what I came up with. I have lived a full life in my short time, I have experienced more in my life then a lot of people 3 times my age and I have done almost everything that I want to do. The only thing left for me is to get married and visit Ireland! That is all I have left that I care to experience. So in all honesty I am really ready to let my life go and die happy. I have done and seen a lot in my life, and I don't think there is that much more for me to experience. So I think this is why this cancer issue is not bothering me that much. So it all sounds morbid and all that, but I really have come to terms with it, and I am quite happy with everything.
So much has happened to me in my life, a lot of bad and a lot of good. I have made very many people happy, and I have upset a lot of people. So to hell with everyone else, it's time for me to be happy and live out what ever amount of time that God has given me left on this earth and make the fucking best of it! And that is exactly how I feel!
Any way.... I went hiking today, went to the cliffs, climbed down into the ravine and hiked up as far as we could up the ravine until we hit an area that there was not way that we could get the dog to go up with us. Oh yah, we took one of the older dogs with us. She loves it down there. The hike was so awesome and beautiful I could not get enough of it. We ate some passion fruit we had found, seen some really pretty areas where the waterfalls would be IF the river was running. It only seems to run 2 to 3 times a year, and right now it is really dry. But the trees and the birds and everything are awesome. We even seen a parrot down there. But the mosquitoes are so horrible! I looked like a damn pin cushion by the time we got back to the farm. I had welts all freakin over me! Oh and we picked a massive amount of mushrooms too... Won't say what for though.....
We are having a party tomorrow after work. Going down to Waipio Valley.
Images of Waipio Valley.
These are a must see!!!! It's a really long steep steep road down to the Waipio valley too. I hiked it once, it's about a mile or so to get down. Was not to bad going down, but wow, thought I was going to die coming up. We are going to hang out, cook and eat down there and do a little fishing. Can't wait. And yes, I was personally invited for this! So yay!!!!!!
My mom asked me about the post I made about the cancer on my back and asked me if I was telling the truth or just looking for sympathy. I told her it was the truth, I mean this is my Diary. Why the hell would I lie to myself in my diary right? I really don't want sympathy, I'm just writing all this so I can better understand the things going on in my life. I don't really care what one person thinks, or what another thinks to be honest. But I really love the support that I am getting from everyone. So really THANK YOU on that note! Hmmmmmm, I don't really know what else to say, I think I got most my day out today one here that is worth me reflecting back on. Oh, and no I will not be eating the mushrooms, or drinking the tea made out of them.
Well my mom might not want to read passed this part though.....
So I have Decided that to hell with what these other assholes all think, they don't count for nothing in my life so who cares?!
I been trying to figure out why this cancer thing doesn't bother me, and this is what I came up with. I have lived a full life in my short time, I have experienced more in my life then a lot of people 3 times my age and I have done almost everything that I want to do. The only thing left for me is to get married and visit Ireland! That is all I have left that I care to experience. So in all honesty I am really ready to let my life go and die happy. I have done and seen a lot in my life, and I don't think there is that much more for me to experience. So I think this is why this cancer issue is not bothering me that much. So it all sounds morbid and all that, but I really have come to terms with it, and I am quite happy with everything.
So much has happened to me in my life, a lot of bad and a lot of good. I have made very many people happy, and I have upset a lot of people. So to hell with everyone else, it's time for me to be happy and live out what ever amount of time that God has given me left on this earth and make the fucking best of it! And that is exactly how I feel!
Any way.... I went hiking today, went to the cliffs, climbed down into the ravine and hiked up as far as we could up the ravine until we hit an area that there was not way that we could get the dog to go up with us. Oh yah, we took one of the older dogs with us. She loves it down there. The hike was so awesome and beautiful I could not get enough of it. We ate some passion fruit we had found, seen some really pretty areas where the waterfalls would be IF the river was running. It only seems to run 2 to 3 times a year, and right now it is really dry. But the trees and the birds and everything are awesome. We even seen a parrot down there. But the mosquitoes are so horrible! I looked like a damn pin cushion by the time we got back to the farm. I had welts all freakin over me! Oh and we picked a massive amount of mushrooms too... Won't say what for though.....
We are having a party tomorrow after work. Going down to Waipio Valley.
Images of Waipio Valley.
These are a must see!!!! It's a really long steep steep road down to the Waipio valley too. I hiked it once, it's about a mile or so to get down. Was not to bad going down, but wow, thought I was going to die coming up. We are going to hang out, cook and eat down there and do a little fishing. Can't wait. And yes, I was personally invited for this! So yay!!!!!!
My mom asked me about the post I made about the cancer on my back and asked me if I was telling the truth or just looking for sympathy. I told her it was the truth, I mean this is my Diary. Why the hell would I lie to myself in my diary right? I really don't want sympathy, I'm just writing all this so I can better understand the things going on in my life. I don't really care what one person thinks, or what another thinks to be honest. But I really love the support that I am getting from everyone. So really THANK YOU on that note! Hmmmmmm, I don't really know what else to say, I think I got most my day out today one here that is worth me reflecting back on. Oh, and no I will not be eating the mushrooms, or drinking the tea made out of them.
posted by Unknown at 20:55
2 Comments:
shit, paul, that's not a new attitude, it's pretty much what you've felt since you've been back to blogland!i AM really sorry sbout your cancer...but, your life is about WAY more than that stuff! oh, and, well.....be adventerous...just try a bite of mushroom! (no, dont...if you die from it, i'll feel guilty forever!)
Lol I didn
t touch the mushrooms. And I am just saying that I think I have really done a lot in my life and it is ok by me what ever happens. It is not worth me stressin on.
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